I Have Three Dads

I Have Three Dads

I have three dads. No, not under the same roof, but all with the same name, Father. I have a biological father. He is part of my chemical makeup. I see him when I look in the mirror or at my older brother. I see him in my childhood. He left when I was a young girl. I have not seen him in over 25 years. I have an earthly father. This man walked into my life like a guardian angel. He swooped up a broken child and taught her to have confidence, kindness and compassion. He was present. When

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When I Cannot See Tomorrow

When I Cannot See Tomorrow

I can’t see tomorrow. Sometimes it’s exciting. Other times it’s down right terrifying. If I had known about the health issues then I could have prepared for the future. If I had known about the car accident I would have taken a different route. If I had known about my child’s problems at school I would have considered my options. If I had known about this, and if I had known about that before it happened, life would be so much easier. Life is unknown. We can plan, prepare and manipulate our lives, but there will always be things that

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Why Do I Feel This Way? Unmotivated, Irritable and Not Like Myself

Why Do I Feel This Way? Unmotivated, Irritable and Not Like Myself

It was just one of those days. The rain was coming down steadily. The clouds made the house darker than normal and I could feel the stagnant air floating in the space around me. If I could cut through the air and open up a bubble of fresh air, maybe I could find relief. I take a deep breath in and exhale heavily. Maybe a few deep breathing exericises will get the happy cells in my brain to wake up. In a few short hours the day will be past and maybe tomorrow will be brighter. Do you ever have

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What If I Feel Like Running Away?

What If I Feel Like Running Away?

Struggles seep in and the pressures of life weigh me down into the deep end of the pool until I can’t tread water anymore. Running away, taking a different course or road seems like the only way out. I am faced with a choice. Choose to run or choose to believe God is with me in the deep water. That is when we have to realize God is there. He is with me in the deep end. He knows my struggles. He knows your struggles too. If I would allow God to be my lifeline at all times I would

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When Things Don’t Go As Planned

When Things Don’t Go As Planned

I used to pre-plan every minute of every day. Seriously. Every. Single. Minute. I love to make lists and check things off when they are complete. There is a successful feeling tied to the completion of projects and tasks, however, I have learned to stop allowing my plans to dictate my happiness. When things don’t go as planned there is no reason to get upset, frustrated, or crazy. And trust me, I have plenty of experience in the crazy category. Things happen. Life happens. It’s 3:00 AM and I hear the sound of a child. In my half a-sleep state,

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Irritated, Irrational & Frustrated: Not the Mom I Want to Be – How Do I Break Free?

Irritated, Irrational & Frustrated: Not the Mom I Want to Be – How Do I Break Free?

He that hath no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls. Proverbs 25:28 I’m not a perfect mom. Sometimes I’m not even a nice mom. There are days that I wake up in a rotten mood. I feel tired and the littlest thing irritates me, driving me into an irrational craze. I don’t want to feel this way, but it happens. Maybe you’ve had a day or two in this irrational land of irritability. It’s possible that you’ve had weeks or even months of complete frustration. You read parenting books, blogs,

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